Fleeting Moments Proceed Our Actions -Monday 10/9/2006

The suffering of the single second,
the solitary nature of moments,
this is what causes difficulty
makes it all something that must be endured.
It's not the happenings, themselves
although we might think that.
It's not the oh so aloneness
acerbic disappointment grinding betrayal.
Not who you want and don't want.
The having and not having.

It's just that every love loved
dream dreamed
idea idealized
desire desired
reason reasoned
want wanted and
action put in action.
takes place in a single moment in time.

Then we are thrust forward through
the necessity of consciousness alone,
starting over in the next. living
every single moment solitary, burning up,
fleeting, always clinging fast to the moment before.
We torture ourselves. Not allowing simple manifestation.
Seeking always to capture possess,
manipulate and own, people, objects, events,
ideas emotions and thoughts.
Perceived phenomena
already passing as we grasp at them.

Sometimes, I get there
breathing in and out Spiritus Mundi,
where none of it matters
the hurting stops
All value becomes relative.
All truth partial.
All ideas constructs.
This is love.
This is silence of mind.
This is the other side.
There is only one path
Moments can not be rewound.
Time can not be stopped.
Events can not be undone.
Choices can not be changed.
No, nothing sideways
No over it No around it
No shortcuts.
Suffering must be embraced,
experienced. lived and understood.
Only by immersing oneself in the suffering
of every single second. grabbing it
without hesitation or mercy and loving it
the way a fire loves
only then does the suffering cease to burn
in each moment and the moments themselves
melt away into the conflagration
of that which simply is.

I will love easy.
grasp easy
let go easy.
breathe easy
take it easy.
Be free of all the things that came before
and live without fear of that which is coming next.
It's the only way, here among all the things
that are really less than they seem..